I remember looking out my window and wishing on the Evening Star every night as a little girl. Did those wishes ever come true? Yes…some of them! What were they? The dreams of a little who thought she needed more than she had…nope! They were dreams and wishes of love and travel…of better grades and friends to hang out with. They were normal wishes upon a star! What If Wishes Came True?
If my most elaborate wishes came true my life would definitely be different…I would have a maid and not have to clean all the time. I would have a cook…wait I like to cook! I would be a well loved and admired recording artist…well two out of three is good! I could eat anything and not have to diet! “What a girl can dream!” How about a Nanny to take care of the children so I could do all the traveling, around the world, that is required when you are a big recording artist? Speaking of elaborate wishes…Where is that Cabana Boy with my Coffee?
To fall in love and get married…Came True and we will celebrate our 26th Anniversary this month. People said it would not last…people said we did not know each other long enough…”Well, we were engaged after three weeks and married after almost 12 weeks.” I guess I can see their concern now…Out of 12 weeks my then fiancé’ was serving in the military and was in the field training for a little over 6 weeks of the 12 weeks we were together. “What? I wrote letters…he still has them!” There have been times when I did not like this man I married…but I have always loved him!
To have a loving family…Came True even though there are times of strife and discord among the children when they can’t find that certain shirt or their favorite socks…and they disagree on the set bedtime! What family doesn’t have some bickering? Just because I would not take them everywhere they wanted to go and buy them whatever they wanted when they wanted it…Typical tantrums! “I am a good mother and it is unfortunate that I could not buy them a “DeathStar” or a real “Light Saber” much less let them become a “Power Ranger”! But…They would protect each other of needed and that’s what counts!
To travel…Came True even though no Passport was involved…I have traveled! I have not been able to travel to Paris and see my beloved Eiffel Tower but I did see the one in Las Vegas…does that count? I have been to Hawaii and on three cruises…one of which gave me the opportunity to see extreme weather at sea. “We were in-between two hurricanes!”. It was exciting and I loved every minute of the rocking from one side to the other as the ship was tossed on the rough seas. The feeling of the wind through my hair as I dodged oncoming deck furniture is a memory not easily forgotten!
To have friends…Came True although I had to wait till my last year of High School. I just never found a circle of friends who understood my unique situation…”Okay…I was not rich…and my dad was either a teacher or principal at the school I attended…not to mention a Baptist Minister.” My group of friends grew when I moved across the country and I was in heaven. Now! Well I have written about my incredible group of friends and how they are like family. I could not have gotten this far without my friends or had as much fun drinking coffee at Starbucks without them!
Do I still wish upon that Evening Star…sometimes when I am standing on the front porch waiting for my precious princess to do her nightly duty…Yes! A childlike innocence sweeps over me as I gaze into the dark, moonlit, sky. I still have wishes and dreams…for good fortune and happiness and for the boys to experience the good things in life. I wish for my boys to be able to know what I know! Dreams and wishes come true…just not the way we think they will. I want them to realize how wonderful they are and like who they are…not prideful…but with an appreciation of self. It took me a long time to realize that! I want them to find love and have a family…”I want to spoil some grandchildren and then give them back wired and full of energy!” But not anytime soon…I am to young! Maybe in about 5-7 years they could start to get serious and consider marriage…HeHe!
I know these wishes may seem average and without vision. Trust me…wants are nice to wish for but they are not what we need. I just wanted the basics..to be loved and part of something!
I guess my grandfather was right…I am a level headed young lady!
Do You wish upon a star? What do you wish for? What If Wishes Came True? Would you be any happier with them than you are right now? I can honestly say Yes! Sorry…I was thinking about a trip to Paris…money to do whatever I wanted to do…living in paradise… “It would be wonderful until I missed home or the money ran out…or I got sunburned.” Have a great day!
“It’s just stuff.” That’s what we say when a house burns or a car wrecks. Thank goodness everyone is fine. The tornado took it all, but it was all just stuff anyway. And that’s true. We shouldn’t love inanimate things. Today my parents had to put down their dog who had pancreatic cancer, making today’s observation all the more trivial But I’m feeling it – quite strongly in fact – so I’m going to share.
I am comforted by my sofa, the Asian overtones that speak to my time in Hawai’i without knocking you down with a tropical theme. I am comforted by my little green chair in the corner. It didn’t look cute where it was before. It matches the sofa…it wanted to be near the sofa to realize it’s full cuteness potential. I look at these items that were in different places and are now brought together under one roof. They look so happy together. In fact they look like parts of me. The roof they are under is not mine. Yet they still comfort me.
And I long for my Mema’s dining room suite. It’s sitting in a basement covered with sheets. I want to display her red crystal goblets, but they are in a box in yet another basement. I want her piano – not because I play, but because it is part of me and of my blogging cuz, and of all of us, and it deserves to be preserved and loved. It is not in a place where it is loved, but it is sheltered from the elements, and for that I am grateful.
It’s just stuff. But it’s stuff that is part of me. If I lost it in a tornado like so many did last April right here in my own state, I would comfort myself that it’s just stuff. But looking at it makes me so happy. I feel complete. Kind of like I feel when I’m with my family. Kind of like I feel when I’m with my kids. Kind of like I feel when I’m with Southern Man. I appreciate him babysitting my furniture. It’s good to see it all together. I wonder if he realizes that his house is starting to look like my house?
Back to reality. Compared to the dog that has comforted you for years and years, furniture is so trivial, unless it belong to someone else – your mother or grandmother who comforted you as well. It’s trivial, but I believe that if we are honest with ourselves, we would find that there are inanimate loves that comfort us all.