Yesterday was a BAD day on many fronts. As the media began to report on the situation in Connecticut I, as a mother, began to shake on the inside. I will not go into detail but I will give you “A Heartfelt Explanation”!
My day began is emotional tailspin as these events dominated the TV. I was unfortunately informed that a situation in my own family had caused my hubby to…how should I say this…Blow A Fuse! My hubby is one of those men who speak first and think later. I, as a female, see a broader picture and the incident only hurt me worse. This is when my anxiety attack started. My swollen eyes soaked with unstoppable tears found no relief until about nine last night. My hubby realized what he said and immediately took action…of course my 22 year old took action too and tried to solve the problem on his own. His oversized heart held things together as mine was breaking and he was mending things in the family and causing parties involved to talk on the phone. “This mending was occurring while my hubby drove home.”
My silly female mind was so overwhelmed with a course of action to be implemented and my hurt, tired, tear-filled, concerned, emotion-tossed heart was causing my body to shake uncontrollably. I reached out to a dear friend and through tears and choked garble she knew to pray. “Such a sweet spirit came across from the other side of the phone. Even though I had not been able to tell her exactly what was going on she prayed for a calming to the situation.”
Long story short…
By the time my hubby got home he had dealt with the primary party and the infraction that cause the major grief. My tears had begun to cease as the remnants of heart-wrenching tears appeared as shadowed shutters and gulps. This morning, as my stomach churns from left-over anxiety, I am still shaking on the inside. After 26 years together you would think my hubby and I would understand the heart And mind of each other. Sadly…there are certain words and phrases that still hurt!
My weakened emotional state is now calming and healing as I prepare to deal with the tragedy in Connecticut. I purposely kept the coverage from playing when my youngest got home from school. I will attempt to sort out his thoughts and feelings this morning. As I watched the coverage this morning with my hubby over coffee my heart ached. Tears welled up in weak-red-tear-stained eyes…
What an outpouring of love and prayers! I know these innocent children killed yesterday are in no pain now. They are warm and happy as they are wrapped in Jesus’ precious arms. Their parents are the ones I mourn for. To experience such loss… My emotional-tear-drenched-heart goes out to each of them. There will be days a memory will bring their child back into their mind. The happy faces and childish laughter will tug at heart-strings exhausted by tears.
Please keep these families and this community in your thoughts and prayers. Hold your family close and love them. Please…Have a great day!
I am sure you have never experienced the disappointment and stress related with having children! Wait! You have kids so therefore you have experienced some stress in some form!. “Well I feel better…NOT!” You know those days where events and consistent routines are sucked back like the ocean from the shore before a tidal wave crashes and churns everything on top of you. Yep…me too! It’s A Terrible, Horrible, No-Good, Very Bad Day!
It is an eternal cascade of changing tides…I know I said I loved the beach but, not in my land-locked house. My poor body is tired of treading water as I try to avoid the debris. It is worse than Murphy’s Law!. The sibling relationships are strained and in constant upheaval. “This is worse than being trapped in a small confined area with a bunch of women with PMS.“. [Menstral or menopausal…Take your pick!]
I think Alexander had the right idea!
If we all move to Australia everything will be okay…Right? I know…there would be overcrowding and our families would find us. To bad…I have heard there are great beaches in Australia. So the only thing left to do is suck-it-up-and-stop-being-a-cry-baby! Tensions will relax and fade…eventually! Until then I will do my best to keep my mouth closed and not bite off any more heads. Thank you for letting me spew this vent lent your way. I hope you never go through this…but if you do…I promise to make you laugh and release a little tension. Have a great day!
Do you ever feel like you have the world on your shoulders? Do you ever wonder why your children do what they do? The proverbial slap in the face stings and radiates causing a ripple through many areas of your life. Mothers, tend to see things in a larger than life picture filled with what-ifs-and-scenario-pathways. With the recent disruption…my emotional roller coaster ride has tossed me around like a rag doll. This Is My Happy Face!
Just when you think things could not possibly get any worse….WHAM! I struggle to pick myself up and try to make sense of the situation. The hours and days of self-doubting as the tear ducts over produce salty waves of confusion. How in the world do this ever happen? A once clear forehead show signs of canyon like crevasses. This Is My Happy Face!
I apologize for being a drag today…but I needed to vent! Wish I could sit down and binge on some chocolate. “I don’t need the fat…the calories…or the sugars!” At least the word happy is somewhere through all of this…there is hope…right? A rough road lies ahead but together we will make it!
Have a great day!