The vacant pillow bed, sitting beside my bed, is a silent reminder of my Precious Princess! The sound of her jingle pacing between the door and her bed is just an echo in the shadowy, sleepy darkness.
“RIP Precious Princess!”
It has been an uphill battle…my Precious Princess and Constant Shadow tried to follow me on my daily trek throughout the house but, her legs just couldn’t keep up. She would collapse, slide down or just plain fall on any surface. She couldn’t see me from a distance much less hear me. My heart just ached for her!
Sooo…Saturday night, after many tears were shed, I said my goodbyes! I rocked her and whispered in her ear. She was a sweet girl and I loved her…after all she had been there for me in every struggle and life confused situation. She never judged or talked back and was quick with a snuggle and an understanding look.
For those of you who have pets, that are more like a family member, you understand the emptiness and little reminders that fill the simplest of tasks. Just walking down the stairs with clothes I look for her…I caught myself turning to let her out, one last time, before leaving for church Sunday morning…the tears rolled down my cheeks as I found myself getting ready to set down my dessert bowl for her to enjoy. The click of her wandering through the house on the wood floors and the jingle of her collar are just memories. This may take a while to get use to…she had been part of our family for 16 years! That is a long time and our little family will never be the same without her.
We, hubby and I, wanted to tell each of the boys and asked them not to tell anyone until after we talked with our 21 year old son in the Army. “He was going to be the hardest to tell!” They practically grew up together!
“This picture was the day he left, for BASIC in January!” He talked with her, very quietly, and then silently walked out the door. I remember she looked at me with these bloodshot puppy dog eyes and shook her head and then laid down. She was in the same place when I got home. He took it the hardest, of the four boys, and asked for pics. I sent him these two! I had been trying to prepare him and even stressed that she was waiting to see him after graduation from BASIC.
The tears still flow and my heart still aches…it has only been two days. But, she is no longer in pain and she can have all the chocolate she wants.
RIP Precious Princess…you will be missed!
“May your cup runneth over with joy, love and laughter oh, and really fabulous coffee!”