Peach State says: A Heartfelt Explanation!
Yesterday was a BAD day on many fronts. As the media began to report on the situation in Connecticut I, as a mother, began to shake on the inside. I will not go into detail but I will give you “A Heartfelt Explanation”!
My day began is emotional tailspin as these events dominated the TV. I was unfortunately informed that a situation in my own family had caused my hubby to…how should I say this…Blow A Fuse! My hubby is one of those men who speak first and think later. I, as a female, see a broader picture and the incident only hurt me worse. This is when my anxiety attack started. My swollen eyes soaked with unstoppable tears found no relief until about nine last night. My hubby realized what he said and immediately took action…of course my 22 year old took action too and tried to solve the problem on his own. His oversized heart held things together as mine was breaking and he was mending things in the family and causing parties involved to talk on the phone. “This mending was occurring while my hubby drove home.”
My silly female mind was so overwhelmed with a course of action to be implemented and my hurt, tired, tear-filled, concerned, emotion-tossed heart was causing my body to shake uncontrollably. I reached out to a dear friend and through tears and choked garble she knew to pray. “Such a sweet spirit came across from the other side of the phone. Even though I had not been able to tell her exactly what was going on she prayed for a calming to the situation.”
Long story short…
By the time my hubby got home he had dealt with the primary party and the infraction that cause the major grief. My tears had begun to cease as the remnants of heart-wrenching tears appeared as shadowed shutters and gulps. This morning, as my stomach churns from left-over anxiety, I am still shaking on the inside. After 26 years together you would think my hubby and I would understand the heart And mind of each other. Sadly…there are certain words and phrases that still hurt!
My weakened emotional state is now calming and healing as I prepare to deal with the tragedy in Connecticut. I purposely kept the coverage from playing when my youngest got home from school. I will attempt to sort out his thoughts and feelings this morning. As I watched the coverage this morning with my hubby over coffee my heart ached. Tears welled up in weak-red-tear-stained eyes…
What an outpouring of love and prayers! I know these innocent children killed yesterday are in no pain now. They are warm and happy as they are wrapped in Jesus’ precious arms. Their parents are the ones I mourn for. To experience such loss… My emotional-tear-drenched-heart goes out to each of them. There will be days a memory will bring their child back into their mind. The happy faces and childish laughter will tug at heart-strings exhausted by tears.
Please keep these families and this community in your thoughts and prayers. Hold your family close and love them. Please…Have a great day!
Posted on December 15, 2012, in Children, family, friends, Home, Just Between Cousins, musings and tagged Connecticut Tragedy, disappointment, sadness, words that hurt. Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.